Jumping into a new thing

I knew this was a winding road.
I am now in formation with gaol of being ordained a priest, God willing and the people consenting of course. Christ Church voted to move to a "Ministry of All the Baptized" model of governance and ministry and I was stirred to consider, then discern, then pursue what I felt/knew to be a call.
It was a lot easier last fall when I had made the decision and then began to share it. It seemed like the right choice and I felt good about it. This hasn't been a constant feeling. It hasn't been very easy lately. Of course I have a lot going on; School for Formation, trying to sort out a future placement in CPE, teaching classes at the Art Center, making sure I take care of business at school, and worry about house and family. It's a lot to take on... maybe a little too much going on.
On top of that I'm constantly thinking about Christ Church and how we are going to fare in the future. I'm confident we'll be able to carry on and have some hope that we might be able to do better than carry on.
Not seeing the road clearly... and fearing the worst at times is not fun.

So long and then Compline

It's been so long since I felt the need or the desire to post on this silly blog. Just now I was reading Psalm 31 in Compline and the thought came to post it. 

Compline is such a wonderful and quiet prayer. I read this for deacon Mary-Frances just two days before she died. She was a little agitated when I sat by her bed. She drifted in and out of sleep but would talk between times. I asked if I could pray with her and chose Compline. As I read she would awake and smile. We held hands. After I finished we said our goodbyes. 

In you, O Lord, have I taken refuge;
let me never be put to shame:
   deliver me in your righteousness.

Incline your ear to me;
   make haste to deliver me.

Be my strong rock, a castle to keep me safe,
for you are my crag and my stronghold;
   for the sake of your Name, lead me and guide me.

Take me out of the net that they have secretly set for me,
   for you are my tower of strength.

Into your hands I commend my spirit,
   for you have redeemed me,
   O Lord, O God of truth.