Jumping into a new thing

I knew this was a winding road.
I am now in formation with gaol of being ordained a priest, God willing and the people consenting of course. Christ Church voted to move to a "Ministry of All the Baptized" model of governance and ministry and I was stirred to consider, then discern, then pursue what I felt/knew to be a call.
It was a lot easier last fall when I had made the decision and then began to share it. It seemed like the right choice and I felt good about it. This hasn't been a constant feeling. It hasn't been very easy lately. Of course I have a lot going on; School for Formation, trying to sort out a future placement in CPE, teaching classes at the Art Center, making sure I take care of business at school, and worry about house and family. It's a lot to take on... maybe a little too much going on.
On top of that I'm constantly thinking about Christ Church and how we are going to fare in the future. I'm confident we'll be able to carry on and have some hope that we might be able to do better than carry on.
Not seeing the road clearly... and fearing the worst at times is not fun.